today I went to an old comic/gaming shop I used to go to as a kid. The guy working and I began talking about stuff: the economy, business, the trade, etc. I ended up picking a manga: Kamikaze Girls. I loved the movie so I figured why not.

Inside of it, it has another story...it's totally my story. I'm still a little girl wishing to be an adult. But because I love you, I try even harder sometimes and fail greatly. I'm the pinky-ring princess...because i'm not an adult yet, though I dream to be a bride.

I'm young, naïve, obnoxious, and everything an adult wouldn't be. But I don't care how old I am. I want to be an adult because I want to be with you.

I don't know how to act around you. I'm too young to understand...but I just want you to try to deal with me for now. I never know what to say to you. If I seem boring or unintelligent it's only because you take my breath away and I want to say too many things at once. I don't know what I should say. I'm so focused on impressing you that...that I can't even really talk to you.

*sigh*

I have another KUYA!!!!

=D And he's so badass at that! YAY!!! He called me ading! I feel loved.

LOL!!!!!!!!!!

Too bad he JUST (finally?? He's a lot older) moved out of gville. FAIL! Oh well, I'll visit him sometime, vice versa.

Yeah title says it all. I dont' really feel like going in depth about the situation on lj right now.

Right now I'm soo sore. I'm sore from football. I'm sore from basketball. I'm sore from dance. My knees are in pain. I still have an all night rehearsal tomorrow. 6 til I die at 1 or 2am.

I have to muster the strength out of myself to finish my presentation for tomorrow. Then I have to pray that I wake up....I'm pushing myself to my limits. Hopefully, I can continue through. Hopefully my body understands that it needs to break those limits.

I need to be what I use to. A Machine. I need to revive soon. I've been wiating....these past two years, maybe more, I've been waiting for that moment that I revive. That moment that I regain the limit breaking ability. When I could focus. When I could be in deep thought for long periods of time. When I actually accomplished shit.

I'm sure if I went to Columbia, I would've never shut off. I would have NO social life, but I would be using my full capacity. I feel like a dead beat punching bag right now. I feel lifeless and unintelligent here.

I need to stimulate my brain. I need a jump. I've had moments here at UF. Mostly on all my papers.

It's funny. I get C's because I don't go to class and don't do hw. It's not because of anything else. My papers are ace. My tests, when I try, are ace. If I would put some effort into the things I do...man, I'd be fucking ace.

That's what gets me. If I would just fucking try, I would have no problems.

What happened to me? Why don't I just give a damn? If I gave a damn, then I wouldn't have all these problems.

bfhdsbfhjdbgf BLAHHHH

FUCK MY LIFE.

My computer crashed. great.

I have a test Monday. My notes are on that laptop.

I officially am not having a good day/night/whatever the fuck it is right now. 3:29 am at the school's arch lab.



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I feel so hopeless and frustrated. A) I don't own the book yet for the class that the test is on Monday
B) I have a study session for this test tomorrow
C) ALL MY FRIGGIN' MOTHER FUCKING NOTES ARE ON MY CRASHED FUCKING COMPUTER WHICH WAS WORKING FINE BEFORE I ARRIVED AT THE ARCH LAB!

Can I slam my computer yet? No, cause it's not quite that dead.




Apparently I will need a new motherboard and it all has to do with the sound card, whatever the fuck.

FML.
<3,
Jo-Ann
(mother fuckers).




I officially hate Bill Gates and all that is related to my once almighty HP products. Both can suck my dick.


=D
Have a nice day.

Forget everything from previous posts.

I got my car towed.

again.

GHEY.

fml.

Comment and I will...

1. Tell you why I friended you.
2. Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
7. In return, you must post this in your LJ.

ANH! KUYA! WHY?!

She's not right for you. She's...honestly...a whore??? Ok, maybe that's harsh, but she in this semester alone has been all over: Nick, Kevin H, Alan, Brandon, and now YOU?? Uhh no. I don't think so.

Please, gtf away.....

ughhh!!!! What are you trying to do? ruin your reputation?? ugh.


She's not good enough for you. Seriously. She's not.

I'm such a cougar. LOL

So I dropped a course and I attended class for the first time in three weeks, finally.

I just don't know...

I don't what happened to me. I guess I really was burned out and I just needed to recover. I think I'm good now. I'm like back to me now. Not completely, but I'm getting there. Thanks to my true friends.

i spoke to a friend last night and he really helped me out. I saw him today and we talked some. Though he's disappointed in me, he still inspired me to look out for me. He helped me a lot. I'm glad.

I'm finally doing things for ME not others. It feels good. This time it feels good. =)

I read ljs, getback to you guys later.

Right now, my eyes are on fire. Burning fire.

I hate being sick.

AND I hate this whole situation.

I also hate Nam's behavior with me lately.

But you know my whole behavior to everything/everyone? i don't care. fuck it.

You know why? cause I'm over all of it. i'm too sick to deal with that shit.